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But I Digress
04:05
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Somewhere in this mind of mine,
There is something
I cant find.
Some call it hope,
And some call it happiness.
All those who've never felt a thing,
No empathy or joy,
Or jealousy.
No hate and no love,
Just dull, moments that don't mean anything.
And hidden in it all there are memories of happiness and pain,
Of all the beautiful things that make it all worth while
Who am I,
I'm so broken and lost
And In need of direction,
But nobody can help me,
Nobody will help me,
I won't let them,
I can't let them.
It goes on so endlessly.
Now is it loneliness, or just my vanity?
I don't know but it all seems so real to me.
Everybody's too busy to notice,
Too busy to care.
And I scare myself with suicide;
Asphyxiate the pain and all my dreams
Everything will be alright in the end.
I'll be buried alone in the end.
We'll all be buried alone.
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2. |
A Longing
02:22
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If you see things my way,
Feel everything my way,
Then you could understand the patterns of my heartbeat,
How I lost all hope,
Recollected it,
Then gave up on myself.
I think you'll realize that I'm not really as strong as I seem,
If you could see everything the way I see,
Our views so differently.
My friends and family are few and far between,
I don't know who they are,
And they don't know me.
Now I feel nothing at all,
This life is so repetitive.
But don't you worry about me,
That's not the point of this,
I guess I have a lot things to get off of my chest.
I just want someone to listen,
Anybody to care,
I just want to matter to somebody.
I want somebody who matters to me.
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The shock sets in
Standing in front of me,
The man who broke our family.
Behind the wheel,
With a needle in his arm,
He crashed into my father,
It killed him in an instant,
I never got a chance to say goodbye...
The shock sets in
That man now close to me died ever so suddenly.
Gave his life for a life,
Saved a life from drowning.
Such a bittersweet escape from the pain.
He turned his life around the day he told me everything.
He told me of the army,
How he woke up screaming every night,
How he turned to drugs and alcohol to numb all the memories.
He wanted to forget,
But I will remember forever.
That man in the courthouse.
With tears in his eyes.
That man in the courthouse
He looked so defeated
His soul left the same time my father died.
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4. |
The Front Porch
02:53
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I damned myself with all the thoughts in my head,
And all the people that I pushed away.
Now nobody cares
And it's all my fault.
And now I care
But it's too late.
All these secrets that I've kept to myself,
I have to lock them all away
But I can't hold them down for any longer.
So many years past,
Knowing nothing will change,
No matter what I try.
After all the years I lied to myself
And everyone around us.
I know there isn't a way to live alone.
The truth is i have no one to blame but myself,
I was always too nervous, uncomfortable.
I still am,
And I am terrified that I'll never change.
so tired of loneliness,
and afraid of abandonment,
But it doesn't matter because
I abandon everyone and everything,
And I'm so sorry.
I hate myself, I hate myself,
I hate all the mistakes I made,
And I hate that I never change.
I hate myself,
Everyone hates me too.
I hate myself.
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5. |
This Love is Silent
07:26
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My Apologies Dallas, Texas
Experimental screamo/post-hardcore band from Dallas, Texas. Check out our newest EP Dark Half.
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